I’m really afraid of showing affection. Not because my parents didn’t love me enough or anything like that, but because I’m so used to it not being reciprocated or appreciated that it’s just become safer not to let my guard down. I try so hard to pretend that I’m this aloof, collected woman who couldn’t care less, but I could and the truth is that my icy exterior which often comes across as rude and disinterested is really just a front to hide the fact that I’m scared, and I’m vulnerable, and I have so much love to give but I’m afraid.
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